This is the Time you Bloom forever...

As I sit on my bed this NYE 08, waiting for Trevor[yayz!], I can't stop listening to one of my favorite songs --> "PACHAD". Hebrew for "fear", its a lovely song by Yael Naim (love her lotz). Since the whole thing is in Hebrew I can't understand it. I found a rough translation on the internetz and its just as beautiful as I thought. Here... take a gander.

Lackluster fear
Envelopes the eyes
Wants you to wait
For him alone
Ties my hands
Says beg me
Give me a hand
Wants you to curl up to him
Wants you to wait for him
Forever

White courage
Pushes me to the water
Wants you to become wet
Come to me
Lights up the sky
He now says swim
Give me a hand
I want you to try alone
It's time for you to flourish
Forever

He now says swim alone
I want you to flourish forever
It's time to discover who you are

who are you?
who are you?
who are you?


Ms. Naim... bravo!

the day my Heart nearly died...

Terrible day. 7 year old brother.. LOST! at dusk no less, in the effn winter. sadness beyond sadness. Tears amongst more and more tears. Since the child was gone I frantically searched the neighborhood screaming for him. No luck as I cried to my bf Trevor and bff Tonya. They saved me cuz I was gone. How could my brother have vanished? We had the world looking for him, family, neighbors, police. FOUND HIM! never sounded so good. I cried on him for 5min while hugging him. Soo relieved. He didnt really understand why we were soo upset, he was only at the neighbors. But the neighbors didnt answer the phone or the door. "Lost" for an hour. It was the scariest. Scary Scary. Hope it never happens again. Jaivon, I love you.

MUSTARD?! Let's don't be silly.. now lemon, that's Different

Alice in Wonderland is on. Im recording it on dvr... altho I clearly have the dvd. But what if I lose the dvd, backup plan! This movie is my #1.5 faveee ever (Nightmare before Xmas is #1!). Its my personal belief that these animators were trippin on acid when they made this super awesome movie. If not acid then sumthn psychedelic hippy trippy. LUCKY! I get a kick outta all the weird ish that happens and how everythings opposite and the like. Alice is totally my role model. Crazy Curious Chica. Only thing that would make her better is red hair. omg! id LOVE it! next time i see little bunnies hopping around outside, im going home with them. Maybe i'll fall thru time-space and end up at my very merry UNbirthday party! yay for utterly ridic nonsense!

Wayyy Underneath the Absurdly WARM Weather...

i hate being sick. germs and sneeze and cough. ughh YUCK. i feel so contaminated. Ive been quarantined in my room since Xmas and im missin a certain special bear of the teddy variety. Hes been by my side this whole time (or atleast on the phone with me). Hes the best. What would i do without him. HOPEFULLY, i can get over this super illness soon so i can see him and show him how much ive appreciated him supportin me thru the runny noses and super extra body aches. oh Trevy... i love ya! too bad im not lovin this headache. Where's my pillow :\

Folie à Deux!

*sigh* Im soo happy. Weird. Havent felt like this in soo long. Here I sit, on my bed, on xmas eve, heart fluttering wildly.. BECAUSE i have a HIM in my life. And he's no regular him.. HIM is supaaaa great! How can one person make me feel soo good?! I have no idea. but i hope it doesn't stop. <333 I have been struck by madness.. an he feels the same :D