cant swallow

so im liking it rough again. of course im really hating it. i dont wanna be mad but i feel like i have to be mad. this is probably a waste. and my back feels like if been stabbed. old habits suck. they never want to go away. i feel like Alice.. "i give myself good advice, but i seldom listen." im so frustrated. i might cry [if you havent noticed i have a tendency to spew tears] maybe i want too much. a certain ex said that and i didnt believe him. i still think in that case i wasnt. but maybe in this one i am. but idk. spring break is irkin my life at the moment. im about to jump outta my window. thats kinda pointless tho, id prolly jus sprain an ankle or sumthn. then i have to be on crutches around umd. not even cool.

::sigh::

im bout to hurl chili; i hate my feelings. bleh.

all of the boys and all of the girls

r beggin to if you seek amy. i love mz. brit spears. yay! new video. [see below] :) anywhoz. im pissed. her concerts r all sold out and i wanna go. haRUMPH!

ohhhh! so the other day i completed the impossible. i have the most ridiculous window that wont allow females to close it, except in collaboration... BUT I CLOSED IT FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE I GOT HERE IN SEPT! hoooorayyy for me! i felt strong.

ok. bad news of the day. my eye hurts. if i wasnt 100% sure, i would think i got in a fight last night. or walked into the edge of sumthn. but i know i didnt. i dont know whyyyy it hurtssss! but it does. ugh.

eff you see kay!

i miss trevor. its spring break and i dont even know if i will see him. eff my life right now.

heres that new brit brit