This is the Time you Bloom forever...

As I sit on my bed this NYE 08, waiting for Trevor[yayz!], I can't stop listening to one of my favorite songs --> "PACHAD". Hebrew for "fear", its a lovely song by Yael Naim (love her lotz). Since the whole thing is in Hebrew I can't understand it. I found a rough translation on the internetz and its just as beautiful as I thought. Here... take a gander.

Lackluster fear
Envelopes the eyes
Wants you to wait
For him alone
Ties my hands
Says beg me
Give me a hand
Wants you to curl up to him
Wants you to wait for him
Forever

White courage
Pushes me to the water
Wants you to become wet
Come to me
Lights up the sky
He now says swim
Give me a hand
I want you to try alone
It's time for you to flourish
Forever

He now says swim alone
I want you to flourish forever
It's time to discover who you are

who are you?
who are you?
who are you?


Ms. Naim... bravo!

the day my Heart nearly died...

Terrible day. 7 year old brother.. LOST! at dusk no less, in the effn winter. sadness beyond sadness. Tears amongst more and more tears. Since the child was gone I frantically searched the neighborhood screaming for him. No luck as I cried to my bf Trevor and bff Tonya. They saved me cuz I was gone. How could my brother have vanished? We had the world looking for him, family, neighbors, police. FOUND HIM! never sounded so good. I cried on him for 5min while hugging him. Soo relieved. He didnt really understand why we were soo upset, he was only at the neighbors. But the neighbors didnt answer the phone or the door. "Lost" for an hour. It was the scariest. Scary Scary. Hope it never happens again. Jaivon, I love you.