rough

ive been thinking. for some reason, its like wen things are goin fine... sumthn in me forces me to eff it up and be angry/annoyed/bitchy and the like. its happened thurs, fri and today. its killin me. this type of behavior always seems to strain my relationships. i dont know how to stop. its like i know things arent that serious but im compelled to make them more than they are. i have a problem. lady gaga had it right "u got me wonderin why i.. i like it rough" even tho shes talking about sex. im pretty sure. maybe some other stuff too but thats beside my point.

if only i could force myself to be happy instead or atleast just ok. im gonna go cry angry tears. argh.

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i bought a memory foam pad thing for my bed. it smells awful. its fluffing up at the moment. i just wanna lay on it already. argh!! im impatient. and i have to go to a couple museums today. I DONT WANNA! i feel like a little kid whining but i hate going on field trips now. maybe if i didnt have to go solo it would be cooler but.. i have to strike out on my own. and i have to take a picture next to a picture or sumthn of the like. i cant really remember.

in other news, my neck hurts. and i have lady gagas cd. its cool and old school poppy/glam. i should prob put it on my ipod so i have sum new ish to listen to on the metro ride and wandering thru DC.

trevors goin home tonight. today blows major penis.

:(

ok. im audi 5000. word to ya momz.