This is the Time you Bloom forever...

As I sit on my bed this NYE 08, waiting for Trevor[yayz!], I can't stop listening to one of my favorite songs --> "PACHAD". Hebrew for "fear", its a lovely song by Yael Naim (love her lotz). Since the whole thing is in Hebrew I can't understand it. I found a rough translation on the internetz and its just as beautiful as I thought. Here... take a gander.

Lackluster fear
Envelopes the eyes
Wants you to wait
For him alone
Ties my hands
Says beg me
Give me a hand
Wants you to curl up to him
Wants you to wait for him
Forever

White courage
Pushes me to the water
Wants you to become wet
Come to me
Lights up the sky
He now says swim
Give me a hand
I want you to try alone
It's time for you to flourish
Forever

He now says swim alone
I want you to flourish forever
It's time to discover who you are

who are you?
who are you?
who are you?


Ms. Naim... bravo!

the day my Heart nearly died...

Terrible day. 7 year old brother.. LOST! at dusk no less, in the effn winter. sadness beyond sadness. Tears amongst more and more tears. Since the child was gone I frantically searched the neighborhood screaming for him. No luck as I cried to my bf Trevor and bff Tonya. They saved me cuz I was gone. How could my brother have vanished? We had the world looking for him, family, neighbors, police. FOUND HIM! never sounded so good. I cried on him for 5min while hugging him. Soo relieved. He didnt really understand why we were soo upset, he was only at the neighbors. But the neighbors didnt answer the phone or the door. "Lost" for an hour. It was the scariest. Scary Scary. Hope it never happens again. Jaivon, I love you.

MUSTARD?! Let's don't be silly.. now lemon, that's Different

Alice in Wonderland is on. Im recording it on dvr... altho I clearly have the dvd. But what if I lose the dvd, backup plan! This movie is my #1.5 faveee ever (Nightmare before Xmas is #1!). Its my personal belief that these animators were trippin on acid when they made this super awesome movie. If not acid then sumthn psychedelic hippy trippy. LUCKY! I get a kick outta all the weird ish that happens and how everythings opposite and the like. Alice is totally my role model. Crazy Curious Chica. Only thing that would make her better is red hair. omg! id LOVE it! next time i see little bunnies hopping around outside, im going home with them. Maybe i'll fall thru time-space and end up at my very merry UNbirthday party! yay for utterly ridic nonsense!

Wayyy Underneath the Absurdly WARM Weather...

i hate being sick. germs and sneeze and cough. ughh YUCK. i feel so contaminated. Ive been quarantined in my room since Xmas and im missin a certain special bear of the teddy variety. Hes been by my side this whole time (or atleast on the phone with me). Hes the best. What would i do without him. HOPEFULLY, i can get over this super illness soon so i can see him and show him how much ive appreciated him supportin me thru the runny noses and super extra body aches. oh Trevy... i love ya! too bad im not lovin this headache. Where's my pillow :\

Folie à Deux!

*sigh* Im soo happy. Weird. Havent felt like this in soo long. Here I sit, on my bed, on xmas eve, heart fluttering wildly.. BECAUSE i have a HIM in my life. And he's no regular him.. HIM is supaaaa great! How can one person make me feel soo good?! I have no idea. but i hope it doesn't stop. <333 I have been struck by madness.. an he feels the same :D

and look to the sky..

Its past 6am (eastern time). Ive yet to sleep. Class @ 9. Woe is me. Im passing the time with my bestfriends, Dell and iPod. Slow songs are on, so its gettn me, uhh down. Now im thinkin too much. what if and what nots. Whys and hows. Soo many questions. zero answers... as always. sigh. trying not to stress. trying to simply give myself to the sky, but its not so easy to see silver linings in the dark... even with the sun trying to come up through my cheap, standard blinds. i will try hoping things will turn out and i might even try to sleep. or at this point... power nap.

Hey Hey!

Been M.I.A. School blows. Takes up all my time. I have a moment of free time right now and I honestly don't know what to do. Pathetic. I know.. SO pathetic, that all I'm doing is sitting in the dark, listening to my ipod. Atleast a really good song is on, "Hemorrhage" by Fuel. Get an earfull of that one. Well, I should take advantage of having nothing to do by sleeping. Or maybe doing more work, just to be busy.

Pardon me... while I Burst into Flames

Hello blog world. I have been a little busy lately, thus the lack of posts. Soo much school work, sigh. As I blog, I am writing a paper about natives and Spaniards and resistance.. or something. I just know its due on my BIRTHDAY (this Fri, hello 20!) of all days. Aint that just the way ish always wants to be.. EFF'd UP! And like half my friends wont b in town for my celebration. Boo them. More cake for my fat ass.

aLL nite/Dont stop

I am pulling another all nighter... I did this on Wed night. OMG. TIRED MUCHO. Tried it again last night. Umm.. not as successful except in the fact that i slept like 12 hours while I had planned on writing a rough draft. D'Oh! Atleast this all niter is diff --> itz a PARRRTTAAYYYY. yUM. Love those. Too bad the population of this party will mostly be younger than me. Welp, least they are legal so I'm not on any R. Kelly SuperPerv ish. But i shall Bump/Grind them. ^_^ [fun.]

Things Always Get Worse...

This wasn't a good weekend for me. Really sucked. I'm glad the weekend is over. Shit happens for a reason, I don't get it... but whatever. I gotta get back too the money anyway (corny but whatevv, I'm feelin myself). I'm on my selfish tip now, all about ME. Least I went shopping. Werd to my new ish.

WTF! It's Always Somethin!

It's like the universe KNOWS when everything is going right in your life. So it throws in a monkey wrench just for the f*ck of it. Thanks universe, I appreciate it. BLOWN. Argh... but what can I do? Nothing. Just let shit play out the way it's supposed to... and hopefully things get better. WHHHHHHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?!???!?!???! ::SIGH:: Had to let that out. Don't really feel better, but it had to do something. MAYBE.......... I hope.

Needles scare, but not the tattoo kind.

I have a phobia of needles. I believe that the proper name is "Belonephobia". Something about piercing very deep or through the skin makes me sick. BUT tattoo needles, they don't scare me as much.. and I'm not sure why, maybe because it doesn't look like a needle. On Friday I got my 2nd tattoo.. it's kinda big like my first tattoo, bigger even. It's an italian phrase, which explains why so many people ask "WHAT DOES IT MEAN??" Vivere per amare e amare per vivere basically means "Live to Love and Love to Live". I think it's pretty. Now I have to think about my next piece of body art, even though my family thinks I should stop. [oh wellz] As my friend said, I will be a Sexy Tattoo Vixen. Yea... that sounds like me.

Adventures to the Golden Arches

Sometimes people get hungry in the middle of the night. This was the case with me and my friends last night. We had all decided we were gonna get some McDonald's from down the street. This was supposed to take all of 5min. It turned into an ordeal that lasted at least 30min! The first McDonald's was closed, so logically we went to the next.. but somehow we got sidetracked by the thought of chicken. Then we were hot on the trail of some wings when I realized I didn't wanna go inside---> Back to McDonald's. WELL... not so fast! We got totally lost in the back streets of College Park aka Cop Country on the weekends. UGH. Ended up on some dead end street that was a [bit] on the creepy side. Soo.. being smart, we decided to let our friends in the other car (who have been following our dumbasses the whole time) lead the way. FINALLY, we make it to the 24hr Mickey D's, just to sit in the line for like ever. Long trip. But I wont fake, when we got back i devoured my quarterpounder with bacon, even tho the damn lady couldn't get my order right. I had fun on our little field trip. We need more like it, haha.

I Have BAD HAIR

I dont mean to brag... but usually I have cool hair. Crazy cuts, crazy colors... oh how I love it. It sticks up in creative ways and I just rock it. BUT there is one situation where my hair lovessss to missbehave. There is something about the DMV that makes my hair act up worse than a little kid in the middle of walmart. I think it can detect that I am about to take a picture which I will have to carry around and show to random people for a long time. EVERY SINGLE PICTURE I've ever taken at the DMV has resulted in my hair looking like some kind of next level crazy ass ridic. UGH! Maybe I will lose my license or need to change my address so I can go in and try [again] at getting a decent picture without looking like Sideshow Bob. I'll prolly end up looking like this dude. lol. Nick Nolte, I know your hair pangs.

Where's a REGULAR parking space...

WHO... WHO thought that parallel parking would be a good idea. Sure, it gives you more places to park, but you're so bad at it that you won't attempt it anyway. Atleast I won't. I've been learning to perform this dreaded task for about the last month. Driving school helped, but I've only tried it like what.. once since I got outta there at the end of August. Hopefully, I know it well enough to pass this damn road test tomorrow.. or I'll be headed back to campus in the passenger seat. Maybe I'm just overreacting, but I don't think so. PARALLEL PARKING SUCKS. hmmph!

Are you ready for some FOOTBALL?!

As EVERYONE should know, the 2008 NFL season is now underway. Just so you know, I am a COWBOYS fan til the death. We won this weekend, 28-10 over the Browns. Had to get that out there, but it was interesting watching these first games. Watching Brett Farve (my birthday twin.. heyyy!) as a Jet was odd. He led his [new] team to a W tho, so he still got that magic from cheese country. Then poor Tom Brady.. out for a whole YEAR due to a knee injury that's going to need surgery. Sorry Pats fans, even with him you still lost the big game.. so maybe this year will be better. The biggest surprise to me (and I should have known this) was watching a double frreaakinnn header for Monday Night Football! I don't remember this before, but my goodness it should become a tradition. It's like Sunday all over again, mmm. Nice. I love football season, college football is cool.. but thank God for the Pros!

Discovery Channel is CLEARLY my favee

College Football is fun

I went to my first Maryland football game today. It was fun, even though nobody wanted to sit down for the game and I was forced to eek out viewing area by standing on the bleachers. The game is made even better by the fact that we beat Delaware 14-7. There was this lone Delaware guy in the section above me who felt the need to heckle us, what a loser... just like his team. It was a little hot, little sweaty... little smelly, but I enjoyed it with my bestfriend. This might be the start to a tradition for me, actually watching my school play sports. As much money as Maryland puts into athletics (meaning my tuition goes into the football players constant lobster dinners) I should atleast see this ish. I think I will, as long as I can make it out of there before the race to beat the hour long traffic starts.

So Depressing It's Almost Funny...

So, everyday I have a line up of things to check on the internet... yahoo, missbehave magazine and a couple of others. Among these dailies of mine, I read web comics. I figure I should get a laugh in everyday and who doesn't love a comic mixed with the convenience of the internet. The latest addition to my favorites is called My Life in a Cube. Anyone who has ever had a typical 9-5, office job can instantly find the humor in these comics drawn on items you'd find on your desk with (of course) office supplies. Seeing how I go to work in a small cubicle everyday, I get a kick out of it... or maybe I'm just a lame. LoL, but probably not..

YES WE CAN!

Like many other millions of people, I just watched Barack Obama give an awe inspiring speech as he accepted the Democratic nomination. It was amazing to see how many people, of every color, be so moved by his words that it brought tears to their eyes. When is the last time you have so many people believe in something so much, that you could see the hope glistening in their eyes? I can't remember, but I know I definately felt a coating of water blur my vision a bit. "Change doesn't come from Washington, Change comes TO Washington" Boy I hope so. I know that I will cast my vote for this brilliant man and everyone who is ready for progress should as well. It doesn't take much to register to vote, but I still know people who just refuse. If he cannot convince them, then I don't know who can. However, I know that enough people will come out on November 4th to bring about a new tomorrow for our little country. He really makes me love America even more. Go us! xD

Sometimes iPods hide Musical Gemz

I have a lot of songs on my ipod. Atleast more than alot of people I know, so most of the time albums I download get lost in the mix and totally evade ever hitting my eardrums. Such is the case with Myths of the Near Future. For all those familiar with this awesome album, yes.. I KNOW, it is nowhere near new. I first heard the song "Gravity's Rainbow" on my ex's Tony Hawk game like, oh let's say a year ago. I quickly dL'd the cd and promptly let it fall in line with all the other music in my collection that goes unheard. BUT the other day I was bored and found Klaxons on my itunes artist list. With nothing else to do, I let the record spin. Best thing I've done this week. It is so weird and melodic and great. I unno, I just like it. "Golden Skans" is like otherworldly music to my virgin ears. From obscurity to "Mii ish" list, Klaxons totally got upgraded, and I found a new favorite until I stumble across another rare gem that I should have listened to a long time ago.

OMG!! i have a B_L_O_G!!

Sooo... I've never done anything of this sort before. I don't even like writing, but this will probably be an interesting dive into the web 2.0 world. Sharing my thoughts, interests and all the oddities that occur in my life with the many members of the world. Or atleast the ones who look at random blogs like this one.