mmk. so i dont have much to say but... since the last time we've spoke ive gotten a car. and i must say that it has stolen my heart. also, things have jus been cloud 9 with trevor [oo he jus txtd me!]. imma marry him. and thats a promise, even tho i find promises to be stupid cuz usually they jus get broken.. but not this one.
its hot in here. im gonna miss this room, even tho the window got on my nerves and my roommate was the devil's spawn. im moving in one week. either to live with a stranger or *even better* my bff. im really pullin for the latter clearly. arghh school. im also tryna score either a 2nd job or a bomb ass job that pays cuz im tryna have a car. and either note gotta get paid or maintenance and shit. im hoping for the good paying job lol. hoping, praying and the like about a series of things (including my relationship).
oh summer... when did u stop bein sweet?
Mmk. hiatus over...
NEW news.
~Gotta job! On campus. pros: 10min walk from my apt cons: the wage is a blower
*in the end, job>no job
~Hair is getting longgg. yay. took it long enough.
~ Relationship [harder]better/[faster]/stronger than ever
~ new && improved credit score on the way. mmm, i love good credit.
~ new fave summer 09 jam --> Jeremih - Imma Star (Everywhere We Are). love it sooo
~ happy [^_^]
so there is officially ONE week until VA beach.. rejoice! to say the least im absurdly happy. I think i just want to get away from my troubles. nothing takes ur mind off the harsh realities of my life like time with my sweetie at the edge of an ocean on a warm weekend. I keep checking the weather. i dont really know how its gonna feel but im hoping for the best. if not i will be prancin in the rain on the beach.. EFF IT! im gonna have my fun.
oh and so im on twitter [hernames_Dun]and like i follow the wonderful Scott Mescudi. I wanna say something to him but i honestly have yet to figure out how. lol. So thats my mission of the week: reach out to Kid Cudi :)
...and watch Sailor Moon on youtube of course lol and NBA Finals, but only if the Magic actually win.
Well im over, thus im Outtie.
im super-cudi-realistic-leaner-ali-docious!
im also ready to hit the beach! yay... just 11 more days left. Its been like a year since ive gone and that was only for a day. this time is a weekend AND with my beloved Trizzy <3 I just bought this really cute Insight bikini online today. It better get here on time or im throwin a BF[bitchfit - white chicks, remember!] like no other. i cant waittt. sand. sun. mini golf. carnival. seafood & boyfriend. does it get any better?
well.. it might be better if i get a job :)
but until then i will be relaxin an thinkin bout my much needed vaykayy
havent posted anything in a while. soo... POST DAYY!!!
Aight, well school's out. yay. sorta... my boyfriend had to move back to his parents house so im blown. but but but.. i got to see him yesterday and it was soo fun. hes sucha funny kinda silly guy. AND we saw Lebron make that oh so magical game winning shot. we kinda screamed from excitement. lol. and we thought the Cavs let another game slip through their fingers. guess not.
Thennnn we came back here and chilled and it felt like it did before. nice and comfy. i love wen hes here. thats my sweete pete. whilst we were chilln, we were listening to my new new fave.. KID CUDI. my candy wife Jazz introduced me to him an omg, i love em! soo... since i love him, u might too. get his mixtape Man on the Moon here!
im breakin down. theres 2 weeks of school left. final project due tuesday an its soo far from done its not even any kind of funny. been trying to get a car for a while. not working. and my baby leaves in 2 weeks. im gonna cry.
i dont want him to go :'(
had an interview today. sorta think it went well.. but idk. ugh, job competition suck n blows. also had some kinda muscular stroke on wednesday. just awful. and i have an art project due on tuesday thats kinda nowhere near done. sometimes im amazed at the amount of work i can do last minute. blehhh....
anywho. im feelin Pepsi Throwback. theres just something about natural sugar, ya kno? too bad i ran out. i really wanna go see star trek but i dont see that in my immediate forecast. oh fiddlesticks! why the heezy is it only 5?! :sigh:
i need a life.
good news of the day --> Beejive for BB Storm is now available! [yayz]
get urs fellow storm lovers OTA @ www.beejive.com/stormbeta
its been a while in the words of Staind. but anywhos, im back like the freshest of cooked up crack. apparently theres a heat trend coming towards DC. yay! i love the warm. for instance, today is going to be 75ish and im goin to some museums (like i do almost every friday lol) and tomorrow is goin to be 80 sumthn [YES!] so my sweet pete Trevy is takin me to the zoo, one of my most favorite places!
This semester is ending pretty well. good grades on everything, awesome looking art, happy times with the sweetie and a car looming. SML! [Syce My Life] ;)
im bored. seinfeld's on. its funny but im still bored. Triz is killin me at the moment too, always sleeping. i need a damn drink.
BABYKAKES COMES BACK TODAY! yayyyy! i felt that needed to be said. im excited to say the least. we had quality time last nite :D loved it.
*Unfortunately* with the return of my love is the return of class... ahh! blows. but its ok, inching closer and closer to graduation next year. thank goodness. then to go to grad school or jump into sum career. museum work... who ever knew thats what i'd do. Modern/Contemporary art is the ish tho.
hmm.. have to turn in a paper and portfolio this week and i have an exam. and one next week. and a project and exam the week after that. what a nice little line up for me :(
is it summer yet? [like that means much more than school & work] gimme an effn break.
>>Happy Item of the Day<<
The-Dream - Love vs. Money (♥ this album)
http://www.zshare.net/download/57406709b8aa37fe/
its always so obvious how in love i am, wen im not around my other. thoughts=him. i jus want to talk to him all day. im constantly wishing i could see him. longing for the day i see him again. corny. yes. but thats just how i get. he has like all of my heart. So in commemoration of my lovey-doveynes.. a new song! ive been totz singin this song about my trevy all day. Enjoi!
Drake - Best I Ever Had
http://www.zshare.net/audio/57344659c901ce4c/
so im liking it rough again. of course im really hating it. i dont wanna be mad but i feel like i have to be mad. this is probably a waste. and my back feels like if been stabbed. old habits suck. they never want to go away. i feel like Alice.. "i give myself good advice, but i seldom listen." im so frustrated. i might cry [if you havent noticed i have a tendency to spew tears] maybe i want too much. a certain ex said that and i didnt believe him. i still think in that case i wasnt. but maybe in this one i am. but idk. spring break is irkin my life at the moment. im about to jump outta my window. thats kinda pointless tho, id prolly jus sprain an ankle or sumthn. then i have to be on crutches around umd. not even cool.
::sigh::
im bout to hurl chili; i hate my feelings. bleh.
r beggin to if you seek amy. i love mz. brit spears. yay! new video. [see below] :) anywhoz. im pissed. her concerts r all sold out and i wanna go. haRUMPH!
ohhhh! so the other day i completed the impossible. i have the most ridiculous window that wont allow females to close it, except in collaboration... BUT I CLOSED IT FOR THE FIRST TIME SINCE I GOT HERE IN SEPT! hoooorayyy for me! i felt strong.
ok. bad news of the day. my eye hurts. if i wasnt 100% sure, i would think i got in a fight last night. or walked into the edge of sumthn. but i know i didnt. i dont know whyyyy it hurtssss! but it does. ugh.
eff you see kay!
i miss trevor. its spring break and i dont even know if i will see him. eff my life right now.
heres that new brit brit
ive been thinking. for some reason, its like wen things are goin fine... sumthn in me forces me to eff it up and be angry/annoyed/bitchy and the like. its happened thurs, fri and today. its killin me. this type of behavior always seems to strain my relationships. i dont know how to stop. its like i know things arent that serious but im compelled to make them more than they are. i have a problem. lady gaga had it right "u got me wonderin why i.. i like it rough" even tho shes talking about sex. im pretty sure. maybe some other stuff too but thats beside my point.
if only i could force myself to be happy instead or atleast just ok. im gonna go cry angry tears. argh.
i bought a memory foam pad thing for my bed. it smells awful. its fluffing up at the moment. i just wanna lay on it already. argh!! im impatient. and i have to go to a couple museums today. I DONT WANNA! i feel like a little kid whining but i hate going on field trips now. maybe if i didnt have to go solo it would be cooler but.. i have to strike out on my own. and i have to take a picture next to a picture or sumthn of the like. i cant really remember.
in other news, my neck hurts. and i have lady gagas cd. its cool and old school poppy/glam. i should prob put it on my ipod so i have sum new ish to listen to on the metro ride and wandering thru DC.
trevors goin home tonight. today blows major penis.
:(
ok. im audi 5000. word to ya momz.
this time im missin short hair. ive been doin all i can since 07 to grow my hair back to its former glory, but from time to time i get that sudden urge to chop it again. its a sickness i tell u. im addicted to the hair on the floor. i wish my hair was like asian hair. asian hair grows the fastest. i think i saw that on like guinness records as a quick tidbit. i dont know. i might have just made that up, but i def heard/saw/read it somewhere in my past. my hair grows at a decent rate but i want sum "i need to cut my hair cuz it grew back after a month" type hair.
guess i will be fighting my craving. i feel like a fat person on a diet trying to resist mickey d's [which is across the street btw]. really tuff. :sigh: maybe i will calm this urge by doing something else reckless.. like another tattoo! i like being reckless that way and ornamenting my body (since ive learned the diff between ornaments an decorations in my art theory bs class -- an i will not be merely decorated!). i will probably get something love related since love is major in my life. especially since im currently swirling down the drain of IN LOVE w/ trev. and i most def cannot swim.
i think imma get "folie à deux" with hearts and random swirly twirly lines. ive posted that phrase before. for refreshers tho, it means "madness shared by two", in actuality its like a technical term for a mental disorder, but im pretty sure being in love is a mental disorder; pure madness. or atleast thats my spin on the
thing. i ❤ love tho. its super coolio and all.
well i think ive jumped subjects enuff for just one post. my next jump is gonna be into the shower cuz i have class in like an hour. oh joy. making a sculpture. hope it comes out like i hope. if not then.. maybe i will cheer myself up with a hair cut. sike! :)
-- R.I.P. Cypher > best snake ever.
today is kinda cold. im not feelin it. im currently perched close in front of my fireplace/spaceheater. theres a crane moving outside my window, but strangely no noise. the construction round here has gotten calmer. thanx jebus. [remember that simpsons episode -lol- "help me jebus...jebus!"] oh Homie :)
so ive decided im tired of the semester already. its not even close to midterm time. this isnt soo great. im tired of having to go to performances an visit museums. maybe jus cuz i dont like being told what to do. i unno. this little sculpture/cardboard thing i made is on display in the art atrium. looks shitty compared to the others. its been called a turtle or wall-e. ::sigh:: not how i envisioned it. now im about to build a giant water ripple out of fish pebble things that you put in the tank. fun... i have one class left that im about to role out for. effn art theory. its soo much bullshit that it angers me that i have to listen to it. i honestly dont kno wtf the point of the class is. it upsets me really. im dreading that exam. stupid.
ehh. ok. im done. least me n trevie are a-okz ♥
as you all know [whether you love it or hate it] yesterday was Valentine's Day! at 12am on VDay, i gave trevor his gifts. his face was the sweetest. i was soo happy. he was like in total shock! it was a really good night. then we had a nice breakfast in the morning. then.. it was dinner time. he totz surprised me by takin me to La Chaumiere. its a cozy, rustic french restaurant in georgetown. fancy fancy.
the fanciest restaurant ive been to in my life.
mm... we had a cheese souffle. delicious. plates were cleaned. then we ordered the duck breast. yummy. black currants accompanied it. they are... tart. the veggies were good. but there was nothing to drink but water, wine and coffee. we drank water. but for water... it was tasty. service was quick as well. we were there for about an hour.
then it was time for dessert at home. it was nice. & delicious. wonderful evening. trevor is the best. i swear i love him soo much!
hope you all had nice vdays with lovers and/or friends lol. :)
i bite my nails when anxious. i used to be MUCH worse as a kid, but yea.. im a nail biter. its almost V-Day an im supremely excited. this year i get to spend the day of love with my Trevy Bear! yay :) he's so sweet. i just wonder where we're going to eat at and whats going to happen in general that day. im excited to give him his presents. i have soo much sneaking to do tomorrow (hooray for no friday classes!) this is going to be a very very good weekend. i think my heart is smiling. aww. im so lovey dovey. ♥
besides my heart spilling all over this blog... i ate catfish today. much tastier than the fish looks. also, its windy as hell for the last couple of days. i almost flew away a few times today as i carried some cardboard on campus to [art] class. i thought i might blow into the street and get hit by a passing bus. luckily the worst thing done was either basically being stopped in my tracks because i couldnt fight the wind or the wonderful zigzag pattern i was forced to walk in as the gusts pushed me back and forth. narrowly missing other passers by. glad my room is windfree.
im soo in for the night.
...and i missed jeopardy :( least trevor's on the way here.
stop me if you think that you've heard this one before. so, i just ordered a burger from jungle grille. im starrrvvving! ugh anyway. i gave in. i made one of those "25 randoms" notes on facebook like a couple hours ago. it was kinda funny making it, thinking of dumb ish about me that most people dont know. some were a little more obvious than others (like how i generally dont like pplz). some were obscure that i just realized at that instant.
in other news, gma sent me a card an monies for getting an A in my winter class. it pays to be smart [womp. i kno]lls. i always appreciates free money tho, def have to call her in the am to give her thxx for thinkin bout me :) grandparents are awesome. i wonder how much she'll send me for all As lol. sikeee, i wouldnt drain her cashflow. ugh, im really hungry. i need to drink sumthn so i can trick my stomach into believing it ate a light snack. too bad im a having a lazy spell at the moment.
& last thing. this makes me smile
dont you just love it when cartoonists get high an then make movies? i sure do.
mm, even if ur not enthused, you should know --> its Super Bowl SUNDAY! cardinals and steelers. hmm. how.. exciting? my vote goes for the cardinals, since they havent been to the big bowl before, they may never get back so they might as well win while they have the chance. i jus know that im happy as long as im enjoying wings while i gaze at the television (or projector screen.. depending on where i go)
wings+football+trevor=best day! im anxious. too bad i dont have a 40 to wash it down. darn it. ohhh wells i suppose. :\ maybe i can trick someone into getting it for me. an one for trevor despite his disgust for it. lls.
almost forgot the other bestest part: COMMERCIALS. mm imma have the giggles today :D lol
its funny feeling like you live with someone. Trevor is here like all the time. I love it. Weird cuz imma loner, really. i enjoy privacy to the utmost. but i like sharing with him. i wonder how long this happy feeling about this is going to last. long i hope.
man, its hard trying to keep surprises.. surprising when ur other is always around. but im sneaky. things will be ok.
other news --> im listening to Lil Wayne - Prom Queen. Alotta people probably wont like this, but i caught onto this song faster than Lollipop(took me sum adjustment time).
RELEASE! no more classsss!!! yay. its like my brain jus came. omg. it feels great to know its done. Sadly, the semester starts monday, but imma enjoy this weekend. Movies w/ the bff, smokin wit NYer, cocktail party wit tha gurls, AND TREVOR'S RETURN! best weekend before school ever. excitement.. whoa. i think my brain is like in adreneline shock or euphoria or sum ish. lol feels like im high. maybe i am. lls
sigh. ARTH351 final tomorrow. tryna get an A cuz this final is 35% of my grade, so it def matters. i have 3 essays to read :( this blows. fatboy slim, however, doesnt. everytime i hear the rockafeller skank i tot[ally]z think of the prom dance routine in Shes All That. Teen flicks. ♥ em! Freddie Prinze Jr was a hottie in that movie. and i soo wanted Laney's red dress(remember wen Rachel Leigh Cook went crazy an smashed the shit outta the egg in that PSA sayin it was our brain on drugs!?). random thought: Lil Kim was in that movie. lol. and Gabrielle Union. which makes me think Bring it On, but i will comment on that another day. "brrr its cold in here, there must be some..." lls
*Instead of studying, id rather Trevor make a return visit. He moves back sunday. The countdown is on. I just have to keep in mind not to get him preggers. Thxx for the concern mommy. Promise i wont. ;)
So its Jan. 20, no school. Its Inauguration Day! Alotta my fam are down there in DC awaiting Prez-Elect Obama to get sworn in. I had an invite... It is 11:32 and currently 27degrees. They've been out there for like.. 3-4hours at least. That was my deciding factor. BRRR. Its gonna be a memorable experience for them though. I dont have patience for huge crowds and not being able to leave when I wanna. blow. Im just gonna have a nice view from my 75+degree bedroom. I love laying in bed & still experiencing history. cant beat it.
Also, the new soundtrack to my life is Radio 1's Live Lounge, Vol. 2. I really love covers and man.. they have sum nice ones. :)
[oh yea.. im wearing my obama tee for the first time :D]
1. my mom is a bitch.
>>i need to get back to my real home in CP before violence ensues.
life is slow right now. everything for the most part is on track. this feels... weird. usually theres all sorts of drama and dumb shit goin on but.. not right now. wonder how long this is gonna last. prolly jus until school starts. the semester always brings, u kno.. stuff. soo.. til then, imma sit back and watch the plethora of channels at mommy's house. Ooo.. and btw, me n trevy been together for a month on mondayyy. Yay Us!
So, i like shopping online. I also like vintage. but only good vintage. some things should stay in the past. found this nice lil site while searching for some 80%20 Casey Target Highs [if u find them in a 6, waste NO time alerting me]. Go spend that remaining xmas cashola, theres new ish too! --> NastyGal
so, in cases u arent aware.. im taking a winter class. bLehh. its not really awesome. its 3 weeks of paintings, sculptures, photographs.. art, since 1945. well, maybe i lied.. its kinda awesome. imma art major so DUH im into this kinda ish. especially 20th century creations. but like my brain is blistering with dates, movements, key words and crazy images. midterm was yesterday. I got an ID wrong. Abstract ish looks THE SAME, least Pollock's does. sadness. Lets hope my grade is still decent even with that oops. Mmm.. theres a quiz tomorrow. so that means more ghetto flashcards on xerox paper cut into misshapen squares and more effn dates. Like really, my memory cant take it. the life of a studio art[major] and art history[minor]. better get an A or least a B. or im suing.
In better news, my room is spotless. AND i ordered a space heater/fan, to combat my stupid crazy window that doesnt like to be closed. Heat.. warmth, how i remember thee. Cant Wait! & Apyz effn blogged today :D, i lovezz reading non literature. its always the bestest. Ooo & i saw Trevor today. Lost a bet. argh. ♥ him very much tho. mm im dyin til he moves back to CP. what "fun" we will have *winkity wink*
Ugh. Fuck childish girls. Too old for bullshit [21 on the way :D]. Just fight me.
... so now that i vented.
Here's sumthn fun! this just never gets old, lol. enjoy websluts
First off. THXX Gio for the uffie creditz. Preciates it :) & Thxx Apyz... for introducing me to Yelle. I loveeee french music. Specifically anything electronic. MMM soounds so nice to my ears. Yelle's song Je Veux Te Voir is pleasing to my aural senses. Its so upbeat and pop-ish. Like Brit Spears if she spoke French and had hot french electro beats. (maybe not.. but i love Crazy Brit anywayz) BUT the fun doesn't end there... Yelle totally remixed Katy Perry's Hot n Cold at Ms. Perry's request. The original is fun but this mix.. fantastique <--[if thats how you spell it]. Im in a giving mood today sooo... VERY MERRY UNBIRTHDAY!
Yo! soo... eff Dunlap. My last name is Lee ♥. I aint marry Trevy for nufn. Btw, gave him his xmas gifts today [late, yes] and he loved em. Im elated. I love when my gift pickin skills shine. Star Wars: Ep. III is on. Hayden Christensen is hot beyond belief. Like the hell planet he got minced up on.I shouldnt be gawking at him. I should be reading for art history, but... i am tired. If i could nap I would. Watevaa. Imma jus listen to my french invasion [daft punk;justice;yael naim;uffie] <-- get UP on them. Or not, if u prefer loserdom. ;P
My little brother had his first basketball game today. (hes on the skills-building team). Oh my. Those kids sucked. My brother doesn't.. he's killer on D. But his offense could use a little help. But sheesh, the other kids... practice practice practice. Seein how this was my first time a kid sporting event, i found soo much humor in it. It seemed like every 3min they were piled on each other for the ball. missed shot after missed shot. bad passes. but there were plenty steals. They were cute. very cute. I wanna watch again an see them get better. then it might be more like watchin basketball than hot potato. Go Clinton Jets :)
Its New Years Day! Yippie. Last night was BY FAR the best NYE of my 20 years of life. I spent it with my sweetheart Trevor. <333. Mushy, I know. But I dont care. We gave gifts, watched the ball drop, kissed at midnight and had "fun". wink wink. Didnt even need liquor (which I got today at a family function..no less) How he makes everything better? urmmm... who knows. But i love him! and he gave me a build a bear that has a hat like mine ^_^!! SupaKawaii (like my Apyz-- heart her). This year is lookin good. OH! and the funniest part.. FOX's broadcast of Robbie Knievel's jump over a volcano at the Mirage in Vegas. They had CGI animations of every possible wrong scenario that could happen resulting in his death with the most ridiculous commentary. Me n Trevy's fave: Coming up short of the ramp and exploding as he hit the scaffolding. They made a cartoon of him exploding. Fox, ur sumthn else. Funny.. but twisted. Yayz for 2009!
